channeling ugly feelings into ugly art, ololol. and playing left 4 dead. someone play with me please, i am purchasing xbox live soon for it is lonely shooting zombies all by myself.

I'm scared.

HA HA I AM RETARDED

CAN I JUST SAY HOW AWESOME IT IS BEING SECOND BEST ALL THE TIME?




IT IS HELLA AWESOME.

stop losing sleep over dudes who don't even care about you, you fucking retard. Man you are such a tool what the hell.

OOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW.

SO MAD!

!!!!!!

How is it that i seem to devalue myself whenever i try to do anything nice for someone? Normal people, TEACH ME YOUR SECRETS.

Today made me realize that without school and other noteworthy obligations i would do nothing other than lie in bed until my muscles atrophied and my joints fused and I became the envy of that woman whose sofa became an extension of her body through skin amalgamation. My grades are probably shit-awful, and as a result I'll likely be on house arrest for the remainder of the school year but it doesn't matter. I am happy to let my skin cells form a delicious epidermis-sebaceous-100% cotton fiber matrix with my bed. I wouldn't have to talk to anyone.

I know I've been making crazy cat lady "jokes" lately, but they're not actually jokes and I'm completely serious. I want a kitten. Or several. Please.

Not-Yet-New Years resolution: stop willingly doing things that are blatantly detrimental to my emotional and mental health. This is why I can't have nice things.

I think I would like to go back to Taiwan.

:/

GTFO WHORE, I WILL HEADBUTT YOU IN THE THROAT.


AGH.



!!!!

I wish I weren't so socially retarded. :/

things to do (with what remains of) this summer:
-relearn spanish in time for the SAT IIs.
-put together a (motherfucking) portfolio, god damn it
-college applications n' shit
-suck less at Rock Band
-unfuck my shit- become less confused about things (this will never happen.)
-figure out whether or not i'm willing to live on the east coast for the next four years (this will probably never happen either- Mao is a staunch opponent of the "move as far away from here as possible" plan)
-make another stop motion movie
-again, relearn motherfucking spanish.
-find another job, apparently
-get my drivers' license. this is at the bottom of my list for a reason.



oooooooooooohhhhh shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit

crushes are just endless sources of crippling insecurity, self-doubt, and angst, AND I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH THEM ANYMORE.

Calling yourself a hypocrite doesn't make you any less of an asshole.

I give up.

I will be leaving for Taiwan tomorrow, and I'll be back in two weeks. DONT MISS ME TOO MUCH BBS.

i'm done fuck yeah.

This is a "FUCK NO" level offense, good sir, and you will be asked to leave the premises on account of excessive douchebaggery.